Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Cancer and Magic Formulas.

Wow. It's been quite a while since I've opened one of these pages to write a word! It is great to be back!

Dad with his "Cancer Survivor" pin and certificate!

In May, my Dad was diagnosed with Stage 2 Hodgkin's Lymphoma. As a part of that, my husband and I let go of all non-essential activities. Unfortunately, blogging was one of them. But since Dad completed the last of his month-long radiation yesterday, I thought it was time to login again!

I don't know if you've ever cared for someone in your close family that has cancer, but it's a pretty busy time- even if you're not the main caregiver. To be honest though, it was quite a shock when we found out that Dad had blood cancer. Last year, we spent 6 weeks caring for my grandmother as brain and lung cancer ushered her into the presence of the Lord. I really didn't think lightning struck twice, but we were super blessed because Hodgkin's is the curable cancer!

Dad came through everything like a CHAMP and Mom was the world's best nurse. She can thank me for years of wounds, sickness and being a hypochondriac. I turned her into the world's best nurse. You're welcome, Mom.

One of the biggest changes in our lives was that for a few months, before chemo and during chemo, even though they didn't really need our help, JD and I spent time with my parents at their house almost every day. This really changed up our schedule and our lives as we spent time cooking with them, watching TV or just keeping everyone's mind off of the chemo.
This change in my schedule really messed up some things! Mostly- it messed up our devotional schedule and how many afternoons I spent just studying the Bible in Starbucks. See- I had this magic formula. Afternoons studying + serving on Sundays + devotionals every night + prayer time before I slept = God is happy with me and I'm growing in my faith.
So when my little formula got messed up, I started to panic. But as the weeks went on, I noticed that God was as close, if not closer, to me as He's always been. I learned over the months that my new formula was lots of service, reading my own devotional and praying all the time. After a while, I really let go the guilt I was feeling for not doing the exact dance that had brought Jesus before.

So maybe that's you today. Maybe you're going through a transition with work schedules, kids, a spouse, etc., and you're feeling a little guilty because you're not doing the same dance. Trust me when I say- God can connect and commune with you regardless of your magic formula. He's not disappointed and He's just as close as He was before.

Last Sunday, November 15th, we sang:
"One Thing Remains" by Kristian Stanfill
"Great Are You Lord" by All Sons and Daughters
"Not For a Moment" by Meredith Andrews
and "No Man is an Island" by Tenth Avenue North

This week, rest assured that God will be with you whether or not you do your magical formula.