Monday, February 17, 2014

Helpless vs. Hopeless

This year, I was asked to lead worship for the 2014 Women's Conference.

As a side note, I told JD that I should turn down the offer because I thought we would be moving that weekend into the new house. He told me that he make sure we weren't moving that day.
It turns out, we had to move on February 15th and that since I was leading at Women's Conference, it was all up to JD. It totally worked out in my favor!

Back to the main point of the story (you know, where I'm not gloating)—
Last week, my mom called to say she had taken my 80 year old grandmother to the hospital. Since Gran is 80 years old, it wasn't a huge deal in my mind—that's just part of being old. (No offense if you're 80 and reading this!) On Wednesday, we found out that Gran had some large masses of cancer in her lungs. By Wednesday afternoon, she was planning on fighting it with chemo, but told the doctor that her short-term memory had been failing, so he needed to check her brain out. After a bone scan and MRI, the doctor was sad to report that my grandmother had cancer on her adrenal gland, her lungs and in many places on her brain.

As you may guess, we were all quite shocked and devastated. My grandmother has been a champ though! She's laughed and made jokes and told stories. She's not being depressed and sad, but instead encouraging and loving each of us. The family has started pouring in to spend time with her before she passes away, which she says is morbid, but awesome. She's still feeling alright and we are certainly enjoying spending time with her, which brings us back to Women's Conference.
I loved leading worship and singing with all of those women in the room. It was awesome! But my favorite nugget of wisdom from the day came from the speaker, Joy Earle. She said,  

"Don't confuse helplessness and hopelessness. You may be helpless, but you are never hopeless with Christ."

Those were the exact words I needed to hear! With cancer, we are helpless. There is nothing we can do to make my grandmother well except pray. There is nothing we will be able to do in the end. We are helpless. But we are not hopeless. 
So I'll keep praying for help. I'll keep praying that Gran will have a good "homecoming" as I've heard it said, but she and I both know that neither of us are ever hopeless.

"Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
    my hope comes from him."
Psalm 62:5

"As for me, I will always have hope;
    I will praise you more and more."
Psalm 71:14

"And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."
Romans 5:5

January 26th:
"The Lord Our God" by Kristian Stanfill
"Sing and Shout" by Matt Redman
"Jesus Son of God" by Chris Tomlin
"This is Amazing Grace" by Phil Wickham
"By Our Love" by Christy Nockels

February 2nd:
"God is Able" by Hillsong United
"Desert Song" by Hillsong
"Great I Am" by New Life Worship
"Buried in the Grave" by All Sons and Daughters
"His Glory Appears" by Hillsong

February 9th:
"Lay Me Down" by Chris Tomlin and Matt Redman
"Your Great Name" by Natalie Grant
"A Mighty Fortress" by Christy Nockels
"Brokenness Aside" by All Sons and Daughters
"Called Me Higher" by All Sons and Daughters

February 16th:
"Our God" by Chris Tomlin 
"Alive in Us" by Hillsong
"Overcome" by New Life Worship
"People of God" by Gungor     

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