Funny how the thing the Lord desires us to do can fill us so quickly.
Last week was a chaotic week and somewhat of a bittersweet one as I sent one of my best friends off to Naval Boot Camp in the Great Lakes. It was beautiful to watch a friend step into God's will for his life. What a beautiful picture to be a part of!!
It was busy last week. I worked some odd and long hours. The Word of God wasn't in my hands and I severely missed it. I was burdened for the need of God's breath in my life but I couldn't (WOULDN'T) take time to make that happen. Today I took off from work an hour early and came down to a coffee shop in downtown Mobile. As soon as I opened the Word and put my iTunes on shuffle, the peace and comfort of having a cup of coffee with my Best Friend settled on my heart and mind.
Not being particularly overwhelmed at the moment, I felt it unnecessary to open up Lamentations, but that's where I ended up. Lamentations 3. In chapter 3, Jeremiah speaks of his life saying, "He (the Lord) has driven and brought me into darkness without any light; surely against me he turns his hand again and again the whole day long. .. He has made my paths crooked. ... He has made me desolate." And then something that really hit home, "I have become the laughingstock of all peoples, the object of their taunts all day long. He has filled me with bitterness; he has sated me with wormwood."
Something that I all to often become upset about is being the laughingstock of all peoples. I can be desolate and brought into darkness by the Lord but to be the laughingstock of people is the sword to the chest of my pride. But the Lord reminds me even now that I am NO laughingstock to him. He created me for different things that are ridiculous, yet suited just to me. So I will be a laughingstock forever to those who don't understand, as long as I am seeking to make Him known.
In the middle portion of this lament Jeremiah proclaims, "But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope; The steadfastness of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. ... The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him."
Wow. To the Lord who has sated me with woodworm, you are faithful and you are good for those of us who seek you.
Now from my iTunes as I read this book:
"When I've got nothing left to say and I don't know how to pray won't you write your love on my heart?" - Matt Maher
"Where would we be without your love? We'd still be lost in darkness!" - Matt Redman
I'd still be lost in the darkness and fog of failed creativity and work hindered by the lack of the Holy Spirit if I didn't take time to find the Light. I can't escape the darkness. I can't make my paths straight. However when I turn to the One that I love, worship and adore, I can confidently say, "You have taken up my cause, O Lord, you have redeemed my life." Lamentations 3:58 and praise Him according to his faithfulness and new mercies that come each morning and I sleepily rub my eyes.
I do love the Lord, and I remember each time that I sit with Him how precious, life giving, path-straightening, forgiving, disciplining and loving that He is. Oh for the discipline of God! That my paths may be straight! In His name...